31, Single, and Unemployed.....My parents would be proud!

31, single, and unemployed... not exactly where I want to be but definitely where I need to be. If someone would have asked me at sixteen where I thought I would be today I would have told them married to a preacher and a couple kids deep. A statement that most people who know me would find hard to believe. 

What does 31 mean? Like everything else in life it's all in your perception... for me, 31 will be the age I make a bold move, the age I demand more from myself, the age I try something new, and the age I start my own business. For me, 31, is an in-between age and doesn't roll off my tongue well....I would prefer to say I'm 27 until I reach 35 just because I don't like the way it sounds and I don't associate it with anything grand... for some reason all the ages between 27 and 35 just feel blah to me. That being said, 31 is the age I am shaking up my entire life. I ended a 3+ year relationship, moved back to my home state, quit working in the only field I have known since graduating college, ended decade long friendships, and decided to buy a box truck and sell clothes out of it! I've never felt cool enough to do something this hip.... In fact, I've talked myself out of my trendy thoughts 1,000's of times... but for some reason at blah-ass 31, I finally decided to talk myself into something. 

What does single mean? At times, I feel like single means I have failed. Living in the Midwest can do that to a girl....I was raised ultra conservative... riding my bicycle off my street was a luxury I didn't see until I was a teenager, a boyfriend was out of the question, and a Godly lifestyle was of the utmost importance. For whatever reason being single at 31 makes me feel like I have disappointed God. A thought that I know is foolish yet lingers within me... being single makes me feel like I have failed... and while I don't long for companionship or feel focused on finding my life partner in the quiet moments of the night I find myself questioning why. Single isn't a bad thing, in fact it's a lot of fun....being single has allowed me to focus on being a better me, to learn more about myself, my desires, and my needs....and although I am still kind of new at it... being single is allowing me to find fulfillment in an entirely new way.  

Unemployed?!? What?!? Well, only sort of....starting a new business is a scary thing. No paycheck and no fallback plan takes a lot of guts. A new business requires so much belief, dedication, self-motivation, time, money, and faith....and if the truth be told doesn't give you much in return for awhile. But as a friend of mine always says: If you are going to be a bear be a grizzly....nothing in life worth having comes easy, and being an entrepreneur is a tail-spin of emotions most people never want to experience... but for this Kentucky girl turned woman it is exactly what I have been waiting for. 

So, do me a favor....follow my story....I cannot promise perfect grammar, spelling, or that an occasional curse word won't be in the mix, but I can promise truth, a few laughs, and some insight on the imperfect life of a single and unemployed 31 year old gal running after her dreams in high heels behind the wheel of a used box truck. 

A tank of gas or a click away....you choose your way. My online and mobile boutique launch in March 2017. www.nikandkatboutique.com